Day One (and oh, my two!)

I don't have time to tell you any issues of mine, but instead I have nice things to tell you. Well at least from today, today was super nice, but yesterday I was really sick so that wasn't exactly a cake walk.

Day ONE!:
I actually fell asleep and slept allllllll night the day before yesterday (woke up and six am and started this blog! wow!). I felt fine when I decided to take a nap around eleven (because it seemed as though the whole damn state of Ohio was asleep! Late bloomers!) But when I woke up at one my stomach was achey and it felt like I had a whole lot of sour milk sloshing around in there. Maybe I did because, come to think of it, I did drink a whole glass of milk before falling asleep. I was sick for the rest of the whole day which wasn't fun at all. But I did enjoy laying in bed and watching movies. And when I wasn't doing that I was jamming out to my new jam "Whip Your Hair" by Willow Smith. So if you haven't heard it I recommend it highly, it's silly. But, because I rested all day long, I didn't sleep a wink all last night and went to bed around eight am. Don't worry because I slept until two!



Day TWO!:
Today was rather more than nice. One of my Bestest Friends Meranda came over because she wanted to make Butterbeer and watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. And my Mom said the most hilarious things about D.J. Lance on Yo Gabba Gabba. My mom is so effing hilarious; I can't stand it. She went on and on about how he so weird and wears "that tight thing" and "that orange hair-or hat or whatever it is." If you don't know who DJ Lance is, you should google it. Meranda and I then talked about boys and kissing (oolala!).
But after that Meranda and I went to Chipolte to get some grub! But before that we stopped at the grocery store to get this:

Which we made a video (but haven't edited yet) about how it changed to this:

Meranda and I were quite satisfied.



Then we looked through old video footage and found ways to edit them. And we laughed and laughed. We discovered that I am the one who always says the funniest and dumbest things, so it's really a trade off. Also I'm the only one who speaks directly to the camera so on the next road trip or videoing day we have we're going to take turns because as hilarious as I may be it gets repetitive. We're making a summer video, one of stupid things I say, and one of the embarrassing things we've caught on ...memory sticks? Right now she's laying on my bed! We've been drinking lots of caffeine and are waiting for the sun to come up so we can go sledding. And we didn't watch any Harry Potter shucks...(but we did watch all of Alvin and the Chipmunks somewhere during all that! Shh, don't tell. It was the Squeakquel!)

I think today was a very good day and it barely one bit felt like I was in the In-Between.


Love,
Sara!

The In-between.

My name is Sara, I am twenty years old, and I am stuck in the In-Between. I am in-between feelings and life long dreams. I am in-between jobs and taking classes in college. In-between the life I have had and the new life I am starting. Inbetween love and loss. I am stuck and being stuck suck, but isn't all bad when you're trying to get unstuck. Especially when you have the Universe, friends, and family to help you.

I can't tell you exactly how long I've been stuck in the In-Between, but I can tell you it started sometime this year. This year three very important people passed away. I misplaced exactly who I am. I moved across the country, from Ohio to Texas, for three months for an internship in my dream profession and came back home early. I left my friends, family, and a very special boy, but most of all I left what seems like a thousand loose ends in Ohio. It's been three weeks since I've been home; its about damn time to start dealing with my feelings and start tying off some of those ends and moving forward.


I lost Grams, my best friend's grandmother, first.



Then my grandfather.



Then my dog, and companion of fourteen years, Buddy.

I was, and kind of still am, devastated. But, you know what, being sad isn't going to help anyone and certainly now me! It's time to love myself and start spreading love and happiness. The best way I can thing to get happy is to start doing things that make me happy. I am so tired of being in the in-between. I don't want to feel like my life is standing still while the world out there is a-moving and a-spinning. Today, I am starting this blog to help get out of the In-Between.

When you're doing something big you gotta start small! And getting out of the In-Between is ginormous! I, Sara, am not going to sit back and mope as life is passing me by! I am going to do one positive thing a day (whether it be paint my nails or help a stranger) and tell the universe (or whoever is reading this!) about one loose end I am trying to tie off. I know that some issues can't be solved in just one day, but each day leads to the next and tomorrow always seems like the most promising day.

Is anyone else out there stuck in the In-between?
What are you doing to try to get out?

Love,
Sara